30 Days of Truth

Since I've been living the boring life and have nothing to write about, I figured I might awa well give the 30 Days of Truth a go.

30 Days of Truth:
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day One: Something I Hate about Myself

Since I have my Confessions of a Fat Girl Blog, I kinda wanna say my weight, but I don't know if I hate that about myself. It also feels too easy to write about that. Do I wish that I was a size 2? Yes. Do I wish that I knew what it was like to make heads turn? Yes. Do I wish that I didn't have to worry so much about dying in my 50s? Absolutely. But what I hate about myself goes much deeper. I hate that I don't have any follow though... any motivation. C calls me "lazy" when he gets mad at me. Maybe I would feel better about myself if I wasn't "lazy." Maybe I could lose weight, maybe I could keep my house clean. Maybe I could have more to show for myself. My sewing box is filled with half-finished projects that I started and got bored with. My table is covered with dished from the cupboard that I took out to sort and never finished. My bookshelf is covered in books that I started to read and never finished. I attempted Weight Watchers and figured out how many points my favorite foods had and I did good for about 36 hours and keeping track of everything just got to be too much work. Things would be better if I could just finish something.